Overwhelmed // under active

That word overwhelmed seems to be prevalent in much of my writings, but there are days when that is the only word that will really describe the feelings that I have experienced. Today that word again is most accurate for explaining the emotions that I have been through.

As I’ve stated often, I do not function well when I leave my bride in another state and travel without her. So this always affects how I process everything when I must be away from Kristen.

Secondly, I have consumed much information today between just watching people and listening to the Spirit speak inside of me to listening to incredible messages on the gospel, to the book I am reading on the sovereignty of God to the stories I listened to tonight of God’s working in people’s lives.

Thirdly, as I’ve processed all of that, there has been a sense that I have been under active. It seems to be the only appropriate choice of words to explain what I perceive to be little effort in moving forward as of late with what I have been learning and receiving from the Spirit. (Having said that, I don’t mean to negate the positives that God has been using me to accomplish, I just have a deeper drive for larger vision and have been slow to move on some of it.)

Much of this is vague. Much of this is just me vomitting information of an interesting day where I’ve been blessed with much time to just process.

There.