Here’s A Question // and a primary tracker

Feels like everything lately has been all mixed up and changed around a bit and life has had no set routine. But the calendar shows a fairly steady and predictable pattern for the month though it will be one of the busiest and most packed months of the whole year. Through all of the craziness that has been life, I’ve done what I can to keep my focus lasered in on the direction I feel God leading me in. Any conservative estimate would reveal that I’ve been bombing, but I continue with a confidence in the one who is committed to me and so I press forward.

One question that I’ve been asking myself lately that has been deeply challenging and incredibly helpful while remaining very simple and not highly profound is, “What am I learning?” And then I make an attempt at journaling my answer.

The task is revealing of where I’ve been and often sheds light on where I’m going. There’s nothing deep about it but I’m coming to cherish this small amount of time that I take to measure what God is doing in and through me.

I’ve noticed that when I toss this question out to another individual the response is often the same and the reply comes out something like, “A lot, you know. He’s just teaching me so much,” or “man, just so many things.” I don’t knock this kind of response, because if honesty is of any value to me, I will have to say that I respond in much the same way when people ask me that question. But, I’m choosing to change this about myself and articulating it on my own time helps to clearly communicate what is really happening in me.

Jesus went about the same exercise with his disciples, he just chose to use different words,”Why are so afraid?” “Why do you call me good?” “Why did you doubt?” And this guy, “Who do you say that I am?” In essence he’s asking, “Hey guys, you’ve been walking with me and seeing the God of the universe work through me, what are you learning, tell me I want to know if you’re getting it, if you’re growing.” Sometimes, the answer was pretty weak. Sometimes it was profound like, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.”

What are you learning? (You had to know that was coming.)