in the // now moment

Writing is one of the best ways to really get your thoughts out. There’s something about it that brings clarity to a situation or a story that you are trying to convey. Desiring God Ministries put out a little journal a few years ago, of which I bought many. The inside front jacket says:

Writing is a way of seeing that is deeper and sharper than most other ways. We see more when we write than we just read.

So I write a lot. In fact, I’ve gotten in to such a habit of writing my prayers that I have to be conscious to just put the pen down sometimes. I write what’s on my heart and what I hear him saying back to me. Its amazing to see how the above quote plays itself out. There is genuinely a depth that is encountered when my prayers or my thoughts are solidified in the ink on the paper.

This morning, I just began to write a little bit about the current life situation I find myself in. Here’s me being vulnerable.

You capture my heart and cause me to stand in awe of the wonders you work on my behalf. I can think of few other times in my life where I have been happier. But may my happiness not deceive me and send me into a lazy stupor of failing to work on behalf of you and of bringing the kingdom into the ‘now moment.’ I can think of plenty of times where I was disobedient, when I was pursuing something that I thought was real, something that I knew must be ‘from God,’ but I was often fighting for my own dreams, a fantasy vision. But, in this moment here, you have brought such great clarity about how to be a part of submitting to a larger vision, that of the local body of believers we’re a part of. You have brought great clarity to me personally about the local church and the vision it should have for the world and not farming it out. Great clarity about how to lead my wife, however well or poorly I’m getting along with that end. And great clarity on how to live as a follower of Jesus Christ in the world. This is not coming from a seminary degree or from being a paid staff member at a church. I’m seeing these things because you have placed us in community with other believers who are passionately connected to the local church, one which is seeking to live out the great commission in this world.

I am overjoyed to be a part of the community I’m in. I love to see how God is working and I pray that it would spur me on and not allow me to rest in comfort of where find ourselves.